I know why she cries (part I)

There never was a limit to my dreams
of all things I've been taught to believe
and let life bring me grace right here
dreams set me free from all of my fears

once I do, I hold my breath and smile
thinking of you and how you'd look like
a beauty of an angle and a white beam
a body of a knight and a smile of a prince that I'd love

never met that man, but I see him only when I dream
not crazy yet, nor am for creating an imaginary "life"
I live in a world doesn't yet exist
for you and for everyone else

O tenderness, he breathes too
my heart beat fast when he's near
can't feel my limps shaking
my soul is flying of nervousness

I love that beauty of your face
and that body that held your soul in
oh your eyes , I'd look into those scarlet eyes forever
and feel the same way every time I do

please be true, be true and hold me till I die
be the knight
be the gentleman that would cherish me
be my world, be everything I ever hoped for

Destiny might lead me to you
out of my craving soul, I prayed for his existence
and woke up on the sound of the rain drops on my roof
the night was not just any night

the sun came up, and I was serving the Queen
she whispered "it's the end", "it's near I can feel it Margaret"
I hesitated "are you alright my Queen?"
"you don't understand"
"I try to understand, my Queen"

she burst into tears, "forgive me O, Lord!"
"But I can help you" I said wooing
"unless you can put my pain into ease"
then she started to breath so fast as if she never did
and I begun to write the story of " the Queen Katherine Baratheon"

my dreams faded away, with every visit to the Castle
with every breath I take, I step further away
from everything I've lived and hoped for
under the command of the Queen I shall write for her evermore

her story, for one day to be told
to the world shall hear that tragic story
for her life to end soon
O God bless her soul

let me adjust to the sadness, and pain in my heart
that I've felt since she spoke those words of sadness
life never been easy before and it will never be now
I came to understand dreams are nonsense
when you dream; you live in that "nonsense" part of reality

wide awake at night, thinking of my Knight
and my Queen, which one I shall pursuit
the knight wont be here, not now not ever
but my Queen will give me fortune that I've never dreamed of

it's a matter of a choice, and time is not on my side
I shall work harder to feed my family
the source of my happiness
no more starving days, not a single day in the year

I ran the next morning with my bared feet
they bled till I reached the Queen's room
I asked her to forgive me for ruining her floor with my dirty bloody feet
she smiled "don't mind that, you served that floor for years"
"I shall write now my Queen"

She started of with stranger words than before;
"we are the night, the dark and everything evil
how our hearts became as strong as steel
and body with no tenderness and soul"

my whole life as a Queen, never enjoyed this luxury life
not a second, with all the money and lands I own
I've nothing to hold on to, am just poor as you
hollow as a bottle of wine

she stayed silent for few hours, and I kept waiting for her to speak
stood up and kept staring at her window
and never moved a side
but kept staring at that window, till it rained

"Go home now, and let me have some sleep"
"right away my Queen"
felt for her sorrow beneath that weak, skinny body
and the voice that's full of pain, with eyes full of tears

after that rainy night, we started off again
to complete the untold story of that beauty queen
sat where I can see her face clearly
and this time she brought a little black book

"shall we?"
"yes my Queen"
"make sure you write every word comes out of my mouth"
nodded in agreement


"I had a lover Margaret, a lover!!"
"yes of course my lady, My king and yours"
"my lover wasn't my husband and he'll never be" cried
"then who is he my lady, and what happen to that love of yours"

"Skip that part till another day, when the sunrises and the land starts to glow"
"as you wish my Lady"
smiled at me, "you serve me well Margaret Parr"
"it's my pleasure"

let me tell you how my heart aches
how it burns my soul, like the acids on my skin
everything was taken away from me
no exception, but I've realized life is not a ring on my finger

nonetheless, I believe in fire that burns the flesh
I believe in water that drowns the soul
I believe in all as well as the sun and the moon
I believe of a bravery man and his heart

with everything I see or even hear
and what I touch and taste
I shall behold thee within me
right here *touched her chest* till the end of the world


I shall believe till men drag me to my grave
with a pity in my heart for all those men
to live without that pure love and believe
but I only pity them who live among us
like stones no soul, no imagination or a slight of faith
in all and all that surrounds us with their existence

*Margaret Parr = the servant, the writer

*Katherine Baratheon  = the Queen

The Queen of my Heart

If our love was never a lie
we'd walk down the aisle
begin to hold your soft hands
and give those lips a sweet kiss


"I'd grant you everything I own and ever have"
look from thee
my lady you're a fine fantasy
dreamed of you for a century


a heart like yours, a better sweet symphony
when I look at you the only thought of  me is dreaming my lady
she smiled "I am there and here my love"
once I gave you a dream and now I give you life


trust the soul and doubt none
I am all yours; have faith in me for once
with those words she touched the depths of me
shivered with tears on my eye


I've owned the seas
with its lands
am the leader of all heroes
before me nothing existed and after it nothing comes


God gave me a treasure to protect, to cherish, and to love
she's like a shiny star when she smile
had a pure core that speaks from the heart
but sadly lived at the time of 'thrall'


beauty like hers!! my eyes never witnessed
I'd kiss her soft lips till they bleed
hold her body till she frowns
but she never say 'the angry words'


of all that time I've lived
with her and before her, purely she loved
that she never would tell me
how horrible I was to everyone


she's my queen, that never disobeyed
If she did, I could never  let her bind
those knees never bound to me
and her wide eyes didn't cry upon me


and finally came across that lady
that lead the king's heart to a beautiful fantasy
I love her like I never loved anyone
to her only the heart is supple.

In Time of Persecution

We have not seen the sun for days
walking through the deserts
craved the breeze of the flowers
and water to beat the thirsts

we've been mistreated
we've been misunderstood
our wives were raped
and brutally our children were killed

no mercy upon us, not now not ever
we're born to be outsiders, "I dream to be free''... never!
to fly like a little bird so far
far away from the suffer

cry upon me Mary
let there be light upon us Mary
come to me, guide me through this war that questioned our humanity
set my soul free and give me wings to fly

to fly..
fly in the sky..


I saw them die one after another, die like flies
I witnessed the history of the largest genocides
blood on my hands
blood every where I go, every where my soul cries

I saw them die...
I saw them ... die!

dreams faded away, to my heart and destroyed me all
from hope to a wish ..to be ill
to die today, right here on my cold bed.. am not a fool!
but a man with a wary head. Yet I feel!

feel the heart beat
closer to my chest
touched the soul, my core ... deepest!!
beneath I ache, of what I kept in " a thousands of sacrament"

I'd sanctify the soil of my country
fought with all of my power to see you one day
just a second, when I was away my whole life,... far far away!!
to pray on the land of all heros, that I've never seen... not today
not today..

I held that dream for generations
I held it in me, in the heart of my sons and daughters
tears upon my face, my heart still burning for my holy lands
that been taken from me forcefully, in seconds!

bring me victory O Lord! bring me victroy, for my children to live in peace
and honored under the fortune's eye
of what glory will provide.. from pride
"tears upon my face"

I'd cry for you,.. for ages!
those tears will never ease the pain nor heal my injuries
Oh son! humanity was lost down the drains
who to blame? for what we've lost? we lost our souls, grounds.. around we used to play

and worst of all, the pain is still there
living inside of me
increasing day by day, thousands of years.. believe me!
as you shall hear, grant me peace...
grant me peace...

on the saddened nights
we fought the war of our lives
we lost our women, children through the conflicts
got nothing to lose, nothing to gain after.. no life nor graces!

my people I call you, by the name of our beloved land
bring it back, to the man with pride... we once had
to the man that have no fear from "the end"

we lived...
we dreamed...
we struggled...
to win the battlel, cost us everything! "everything son" we once owned!

and you tell me, yet you can smile?
you tell me, life is still good around me?
you give me hope?
how life can be pleasant when I've no land, no family, nor history to remember... yet I bleed from head to toe!

God knows to frighten and dismay the enemy
lay them under a curse for eternity
let their bodies dry from poverty
and their children to live with disgrace and fragility. (Amen)




notes:
1-I used (God), (Mary), (Lord) because the poem is presenting a whole nation with different religions, faith, and beliefs.

I'll add more notes later

Longing

There's curiosity controlling the mind
there's fear against the creed
and eager for tomorrow's deed
but surely; I'll praise thee till the end

I believe in his smile
where I found a place I can call home
and peace
a word or a look upon his face; I smile

I thought I'll never be healed
with a glance I am freed
yet as he spoke to me; I smile as I could
and 'I love' is the only word in my mind

happy at heart?
to live life to the fullest
with his presence I'll be gladly the happiest
indeed, he's the sweetest of all yet the best!

O, God hear me
a command of his to set my soul on fire
to melt over the flame
and the love that'll never change

now, I'm more joyful and I can happily sing
to the stars and whatever it could bring
of his love to overcome me, or something!
I couldn't figure but am patiently waiting

I am a little scared my dear
of a tragic loss; that's my fear
please hear!
so, you and I wont have to suffer

I weep with devastation from my cruelty
I doubted you once, and that torn me apart dramatically
mind me, once I break I say things spontaneously
but believe me, I'd never dare to hurt you purposely

if I ever did, I shall have the power to undo it
and heal every wound on your body - I must!
not break your heart apart
and when you need me I'll be by your side, no doubt!

promise you I will never fail you, not my intention
to the last breath of me I'll keep it in
or I'm undone; if you asked me to fly upon
you - the only one in my core, no confusion

now, my dear to demonstrate my feelings for you
I'll leave the decision of it all up to you
clearly, because I dearly love you
forgive my words or deeds if they've once injured you

the words seems so hard to pronounce
so, I write!
it could be my only way to say words that are sincerely true
and yet no one else matter but you to me

last words to say
in silence you may read those words of my poetry
don't refrain after and don't go away
whatever happens I'll never change but I'll definitely stay

I'll say with honor
for the world to hear
I'll love you with all I've of power
then I should leave you happy after

The Shadow Of The Palm Trees

when the light of the sun comes upon
feels the warmth and touches my skin
and my hand on my chest
while the heart skipped a beat

sang for the lonely nights
on the empty roads
we walked through
no hesitations nor regrets beneath

lay the body on the green grass
and under the shadow of the palm trees
we laughed
and never glanced

how the love of two young hearts faded away
it flew.. you say?!
never imagined I'd never see your face
not a look on the pretty eyes of yours nor a touch once more

I lay on bed every night wondering and asking questions need to be answered
wondering what life gave you to forget the love we once had
can't find an answer
can't stop thinking... "shed a tear"

love O where you went?
the warmth of my soul and how my heart felt
when there was you beside me
all I wanted to be there forever and evermore

I had not let it all yet
you meant the world to me, that was in the past
but left me here to die
with no hope

one day you'll realize the world we lived in isn't going to be back
all we had is gone with the rain drops, if there's luck
my heart shall be healed
from all the scars your departure caused

how sad to say again
no man is worth to suffer and risk for, no man!!
but I believe you deserve everything I own
my soul, my heart my body my all! you are my man

came in to the heart for once and never left it at all
made my mind and it's final
I can't barely say how much it hurts to be alone
lonely friday's it shall be

it's cold when you're not around
the noises I can't hear but your voice is a melody
you shall give me life if you answer me
let me know you are watching me

waiting for me, you may promise?
let me know my love, you'll never leave
give me hope,
give me air to breath

oh my poor heart let this love go, you shall hear me "scream"
set my soul free, and give me reason to dream
under the palm trees; yet I believe in you
and bid farewell, dear lord, lest I should grieve you

The Secret Affair (Part I: The Mirror)

At dawn, he looked through the window with hope
he said; "the sunrise is marvelous to see"
what's on the mind, but thoughts of absurd belief
then start the day with a shiny smile

To live or to grieve? I ask myself ... every night
the answer is never found, not yet!
I held the short memories of him, indeed a delight
God only know what all of him "to me" meant

He was a knight with golden hand (s)
a man walking with his chest up with his sword on his left hand
brave enough to rescue the weak and his cruel world
from unfairness and violence it seemed

He choose none, I couldn't believe!
to fly with the stars, he dreamed once
"the moon I wanted to see", Closer, closer from my eye
thus; an Astronaut he became

He was great in all, I believe!
Oh a fair knight he'd be
God gave him knowledge and grace
and his name was....

His dreams... he wouldn't tell!
but the heart beneath his chest is true as a fine steel
with all he was not a man of faith never keep his promises, and always forgetful
absolutely tenacious, never frail

When he speak to me, at any day
he leaves me with joy
a smile on my face, nothing more to say
but to feel the warmth in my heart, is beyond to let it cross by

He make the heart of mine beats out of tune
the colder I get, just a thought of him and am never free
like a mirror in the hand, he looked with a glance
that's to say a mirror and the sword, magic I see!