10 Wonders of life (Part I: Appreciation)

Listen to the rain drops and let it washes your sins away
feel the warmth of the night but never with melancholy
close your eyes, let it be the end of the unpleasant day
pray to the Lord, with all his might and will's to take your soul peacefully
"I'm not proud of what I've done in this life."
as God gave me all what I need from grace
"live more, freely, I crave for a second chance."
silent in the night I shed the tears of a regret and of how my life was just a wasteon desire, 
and lust that controlled the mind and drove me like some sort of a machine
it's the reason of what I've became 
lost it all, my fortune, my faith and most importantly my love
Oh fade away my dreams, my all she owned the life of mine
She loved me when I am down to earth
she held me when I am in a bad health 
she appreciated me, even when I am out of cash
Oh that lady; the queen of my life
the saddest man is what I am now, 
how could I realize it that late "burst out crying" 
she's forever gone
if the end could justifies the means, how could it?
 it should be the end of life
but it never going to be my last
till I make a change of what's left
to God hear my voice in the night
and free me from this torment
running out of time, to go with my fate?
or live on those memories that'll keep hunting me till I lay in my grave
give me light, give me hope
a reason to live once more
I found her living in me
her sweet shiny smile
her lips were red as rose
beautiful soul she carried along, with the light on her face
I miss the whole of her embrace
her words; "and be true to me as I am to you." said she. 
and what she brought to my day. 
From laughter and peace
lots of love and grace
to me she'll remain here
a memory beneath these sheets with me of her warm body as if she still near
and her pleasant voice , Oh I can clearly hear
of her face; I see from far
but I rarely recall all of her
the way she talk and breath
I really miss you A'idah
learnt that we always leave the good apple and go for a cup of coffee
while the apple is a source of energy more than caffeine
but we tend to love the things that harm our bodies.
Remember; to appreciate what you've now before it vanishes.
The end