What Lies Beneath

At the beginning patience was my friend
As every friendship has its end
looking back at time, you conquered my mind
you were the meaning of life, the best friend I ever had
I fell hard, that wasn't my will
and deep as the depth of the well
drowning with grieve yet I wept of sympathy
you swept me off my feet willingly
as the sun rises, I hope to see your face
to smell your sensual perfume
of mangos and silver sagebursh
as I crave the essence of your mouth
we lived for the creation of our dreams
Dreamt of us running with all the white horses
Never had the chance to grant you my world love
Yet every day with you is paradise
try to love me for my purity
for all the wild choices and insanity
I could change the game rules
But we wont be able to reach the edges
remember the innocence and the long days of solitude?
your curiosity to know my name?
we were eager to speak, eager to greet one another
Togetherness is our ultimate weapon of endless power
say something as my glass is running half empty
or let me tell you all of my feelings towards hopelessness; if I may?
I spoke of you and your grace
Then my words were lost as I saw your face
I loved you then, now and every bit of you from a far
as I sat to watch you fully love another
you see my dear, I had patience on my side
I let go for a little while with whole lots of love
as I watched my dreams drifting away by the river
I'll always smile as your memory is so dear
of joy and loveliness you brought to me
you; is very humble and full of elegance
Like a white horse with hazel eyes
I shall adore thy image and charming breezes
Until we give up on the emptiness of silence
yet you'll always give me chills till my heart trembles.

The Oath

Everytime my mind takes me to far destinations
as I walk through a field of flowers
no pain I feel then but sunlight burning me skins
to escape the torture and all the disasters
I remember his grace with full powers
let me live for the sake of our ill fathers
couldn't taste victory for so many hours
upon us the sun shall rises
and the moon will visit us with all its darkness
we dive in to reach the beautiful shores
can only think of his face in the crowds
all of 'em are full of agony and speak only lies
to deceive us and take away our beautiful lives
as they walk and cross the empty lands
seeking empathy within the frozen grounds
looking above and beyond for the merciful lords
let me keep my life for me to feed their souls
we'll bring you our daughters
and grants you our lands
but laughter comes to mind; I am fool that only obeys
my land is heavenly green with million of roses
where you can fulfill that filthy desires
but you will not find the love of your families
as they lay beneath the gloomy grounds
I call out the army of braves
of our brothers and sisters
fight for your precious lives
follow thee light across our dark forests
pray for death to be easy upon your souls
them tears will dry out and you'll smile without reasons
now I understand why we hide behind our shadows
rather thinking it's what we see, it's never our reflections
as the raven fly over the dead bodies
I hear you breathing and them eyes full of fears
as I come near I see pain, I see terror; I see tears
your voice crumbled as you surrendered to them angels

"take my sorrows
take my soul, my emptiness
I beg thee lord of fires and lights
stop my heartbeats
give me those warm hugs
and leave me with cold in my limbs
then all terror within me soul dies
for peace to finally come upon me alls."

The path to demise

Oh the little things I've shared
The shameful secrets I've buried
Of love and sufferings for long ages
And hath been still life and your loveliness
You keep my head off the fears of hopeless future
The fears that made me forcibly dig my grave to die
Among the field of civil warfare
We never thought we would survive
The land of betrayal and bravery
Has fallen upon the kingdom of putridity
What's worse than a brave man's iniquity
Shedding tears over the greatest loss for eternity
We are the men and women of the greatest civilization
Don't tell the lonely heart of your silly victimization
Oh my land, my beautiful cold home
You are forever gone
I shouldn't leave with blood on my hands
Alone to face the dreadful truth
That your noble men brought upon us
They are the fallen men of arms
the loner grieved over the wasted years
God will not protect us nor the innocents
We shouldn't leave, we are the victims of cruel high authority
But instead we surrendered to the trickery
There's fire inside of us of anger and vanity
But you left me with no choice but to choose dishonesty
I will burn in hell for sure
Lived for them desires as it always have been for me
I can't be saved, nor my God will
Whatever belief you follow, you are a noble girl
I'd force you to grant me mortality
But what's the use of living with raging knavery
There's a life ahead of me I believe
A life that's not pale
Do you remember when we lost the light
We lost everything and left thousands of bodies to rot
The root of true love to that land is sinful
at then I paid off for my lousy deeds till I'm pitiful
It is tremendously cold inside
Yet the inside not awakening from its strife
Fighting all the senses with the name of religion
Questioning my sanity was my strongest burden
I'll let you dream of tomorrow's sunrises
So you may live as one of its heroes
If you recall your beliefs I'll serve you
Bend my knees for you
Just give me back my right
My broken soul and my bright
For those lost memoir I want to rise
From ashes to strong doctrine
Let me dream and surrender to your grace
Let me lead the path of demise
From all what is dark and all the inner sorrows
And for our fallen men and their lonely widows
I sense a fortune coming for me
But never forget to be humble so you can happily live
There's no place for worrying
No chance to have fears as long as I'm among the living
My faith shall never be brittle
And I can't give you my love that's little
So long you lonely heart
Leave that empty life for fear it might hurt
Wasted the last few years in a torment
Never thought to find hope in hell
These last few years were tragic, farewell
We shed so many tears yet I love you dearly
Let me say the last words with tears and all that's holy
With an open heart and complete honesty
In prayer for you, I must leave soon
With the few good memories that's poor
Don't lead me astray
But fly me to the blue sky
To see the Astros in the lonely nights
O you fascinate my tearful eyes
I'll treasure you but never be flattered
I can live away from you yet I will remain scattered

Flowing Tears

How about now little stars
how about you heal my scars
and then we can fly over the green hills
instead of wandering around like lunatics

Go let me be.. further than the cloudy skies
let me go to walk alone with tears in my eyes
I've had enough with this torment to see you smile from a far, hurts deeply
just let me go so I can live and breath peacefully

As it begun with the touch of thee
the love and friendship that everyone seek(s)
got me patiently waiting to sleep beside you that's my wonderland(s)
to put my head over your chest and hear your heart beat(s)

It drove me away to the deep sorrow of the seas
pain was my companion all this years
till I almost collapsed with pain deep in my bones
I was held in awe that left me with permanent bruises

We spent the days drawing the lines
of love and future is bright we thought, just to enjoy the last days
but we fell hard, harder than ever
to drown deeper and deeper

To hear the voices of hope, grant me a chance to walk on the ground
to walk through fields of Orchid
dreams can be real if we want them to be, for that I am hungry and starved
I tried everyday to heal all of me yet the body is still terribly wounded

I found solace through your eyes
the beauty of the deep blue skies
while listening to your singing voice
I am still enchanted by the light you brought to my life

What an astonishment! One day you broke me
and one day you bring me back to life
I want to be free again, free from the curse you call love
honestly freedom is irrelevant these days as I want you to be my estate

I crave for you .. my body crave yours till the end
those beautiful emotions are dead and gone for one touch of the hand
let me be I beg!
your love is cancer taking all over my body.. let me be I beg!!

What's the harm for romance to be true and pure?
wondering ..  Would it be heaven or  a pandemonium life?
I lost the words .. I lost my way back home
that's when I lost you, you are my home!

Slowly I drove back to inferno of the mind and soul
there's always light at the end of the road, that's worth the ordeal
I believed in you, as if you're the lord of love ... that slice of belief never died
"clear your mind and your heart of fancies and let him go"

How can this man love with agony and hateful thoughts?
how can he enjoy your body, your pure love when he pleases?
she must die, horribly
she must leave to breath easily.. I perceive your agony piteously

fly while you can you pure dove with all of your sensations
fly over the field of Orchids
to play on bed of roses and drink to our lasting sins
over him and empress the blue seas

Listen to my wisdom, listen to me with full attention
"Better to die than love another
better to drown than be with a stranger
stranger to my heart, stranger to my body and soul
yet I shed no tear, those moments were of no avail"

That's the fall and rise of me
hope made me walk through the sea
traveled the world and flew over the dark skies
to forget, to find what I have been missing over the past ten years

I will be here standing under the rain, alive!
waiting in the cold, fire for all I care
with the flowing tears, thinking of you and me
of paradise to comfort me when I am wary and alone

Let us speak again, once every year
let us love one another like we never lost the war
let us rise and never fall to finally pursuit our dreams
of hope inside that fully encounters us