Farewell

There is no power on earth that brings the dead from their graves
Our imagination that feeds the filthy minds
To tell our tragedy and millions of misfortunes
Of whom to seek and opens the door to our simple empty lives

There is  nothing I should like so much as you
If only I could close my eyes and see only you
To think of thee "Oh dear why do I have to weep?"
"Some things are never meant to be, but I'm never here"

I know you did not meant to leave . But fate had to play its role
To put such emotions into words brought death to me
Felt there is no tomorrow without his love near
Only sorrow and beneath my smile, there is nothing to fear

Dear, as I hope for God's bliss awaiting his mercy to be upon me
I wrote those words of love, affection and hope
Let me tell you few last words, may this be remembered for centuries
In the history of humankind, love lived among wars, slaughters and diseases

We once walked through fire, holding hands and no regrets ever passed through our minds
To let love warmth our souls and heal our injured bodies
Not thinking of what obstacle we could face next but loving you forever was enough
Enough to bring my soul to see heaven on earth

I could not imagine life without your presence, your cold hands and your crackled voice
It was sweet melody to my ears... A voice of an angel
You are my only angel that ever existed in earth and furthermore
Bring me light for when I see the beauty of your face

Take me home where I can hear you singing to my ears
Where I can keep feeling your presence near
Even in my heart I know you are never here
Oh farewell my empty lovely soul

farewell my blue eyes angel
I doubted your love once
I thought your heart was made of stone
For when at night I feel your cold body as if you walked on ice

But everyday we relive our fairytales
We meet under the light of the sun so I can see the loveliness of your eyes
When I look at you I see blue skies, oceans... I see paradise
My story is true as a beating heart... Never had a free choice

But to love you forever .. That was the act of hearts
The mind is weak, fragile and worthless
Has no power upon me to control those messy feelings
Oh darling what have you done to me.. You took me to heaven  while my mind is gone far beyond madness

"Everything made sense at that time, fell for the lies and kindness you showed
But my feelings were stronger than silly paranoia"
"We are worthless now, we know the truth of our intentions. We both were aiming for salvation but at the end we lost the love."

I knew from the very start of our silly tale
I'd love you forever with all the doubts inside
You were on my mind,, since you walked through that door
Those endless moments of despair

It will always be yours.. Only yours
With all the passing years
And distance that seems faraway
My heart is yours for eternity

But what is the point when we have lost what is ours
When we fought for long till dreams were lost for us
When blue turned to gray till it reached darkness
Still one thing remains.. The beating heart

Wake up, we still have time to live
To breath once more
And breath evermore like there's no sword pointed at our throats
Like flying angels over the wide oceans

"Never mind .. It dies at the end
It doesn't matter what I feel
Or what I'm going through without you
If you are not by my side .. I don't exist"

I rather die from loneliness than look back
To forgive you for taking away my smile
But I shall believe no one..
Nor trust no man.. Till I finally peacefully die with no one by my side

Farewell blue eyes angel, farewell ...
We will keep lying to ourselves
That we are not broken anymore
Truth won't be fixed .. The heart is made of glass

I know why she cries (part II)

Their mind is like a tree in the winter
that'll never get any greener
no chance of getting better
they'll never hide from the eye of the beholder

Margrate: Tell me your story
Katherine: my story? You think I'd tell you that easily?
Margrate: didn't you ask me to write it on those wet papers?!
Katherine: well not today, when the sun rises

Margrate: But the sun rises every day, Madam!!
*my bones are shivering, I feel the cold inside her room*
*and that weird silence*
*she kept staring at her window, and I had to leave*

everyday she give me chills with her dark words
everyday  she prove to me how lonely she feels
how creepy she's and quite mysterious
only her beauty charms all  souls

I ran with my bared feet
*I've to tell Bill about this secret*
*oh what if he got mad, he will probably leave me*
*suddenly I can't feel my legs anymore*

Bill: What took you so long Amiit
Bill: You suppose to prepare for us something to eat
Margrate: why you're calling me Amiit?? and I had to work for hours
Margrate: yet I've only pinnies

Bill: What's going on with you? You became like the walls in this house
Bill: we never talk, eat together. Nothing feels the same!
Bill: we became like a ghost family, and you're never here
Bill: tell me that's not our end, tell me I'm in a nightmare

Margrate: stop the platitudes Bill! You always over react
it's not easy for me either, but...
Bill: but what?? Don't think of selling your self
it will kill us, and every memory in the past... is our break off
Margrate: Let me speak the truth just don't disbelief

I've been working for the Queen Katherine
she asked me to write
and publish the saddest story of all, you could never imagine
I've been writing for months, I kept it safe

For us to build better days
live like the royals
we can buy more lands
and be away from all the wars

I thought of telling you million of times
lived with silence tourtering my senses
let me be your future, even your past
let me be your eyes that see only light

I've walked the miles for you
day and night with blood on my feet, for you
for once I feel so fearless and happy
I'm finally alive, don't you even worry

Once I thought our love is a fairy tale
thought it will never die
even in time of war and crime
now we can be together and survive

Oh Bill, I'd keep the love
I'd lay beside your dead body and grieve
I'd spill my blood if it'd make you smile
my world revolves around you, no one else

And the Queen will give me fortune
then we can rule everyone
she promised if I keep on writing for her
she'll reward me with gold and silver

imagine my love, how wonderful life would be
a magical life
happiness is our destiny
every blood and sweat we dropped will make us wealthy

Oh sweet Bill, why you're dropping those precious tears?
are you happy for us?
what came into your soul my love?
speak some words to me

Bill: what do you want me to say?
Margrate: speak the truth, only!
Bill: but I'm afraid to hurt you
I'd free the demon in you
Margrate: *laughed* demon!! I don't understand you

Bill: you asked for the truth, then you shall hear nothing but the truth
*the silence took over, I could hear his breath*
go on...
go on...

Bill: I know you've always dreamed to be a writer
I know we need the money to live, but not to be richer
I know the love we felt once isn't the same anymore
I left you years ago, you're still living in the past Margrate

Margrate: What?! Why you're talking to me like we aren't together anymore?!
tell me you love me!!
I can't believe a word Bill, not a word!!
let me love you forever, that's all I ever wanted

Bill: let me finish Margrate, hear me for once
let me speak the words you need to believe
don't say one more word, till I hold that weak body of yours
till you realize you're living in an imaginary world for years

*I cried, thinking of myself and my life never existed before*
*he let me down once more*
*I kept my mouth shut, for me to hear his beautiful voice*
*Oh how I cherish thee*

Bill: listen to me Margrate Parr, the reason why ...
you've been drifting away from reality
is not understood from us all
but you created your own world and thinking it's real

you've became like a dead body walking for years
we all know there's a demon controling your senses
your not the real Margrate, none of us can help you to be
you might find peace, and light. But you'll never be able to truly live

Margrate: you're talking nonsense again Bill
I shall not believe you, and your lies that made me ill
go on in your way and I'll serve the Queen till death
I'll write forever, or swell until I burst for what it's worth

Bill: can't you hear me for once in your miserable life?
I saved you, and gave you a home
while everyone is afraid of you and your demon
I held your hand and gave you all of my lovin

*That day he walked away*
*I still dream to be free but who am I fooling? I'm a prisoner in my own body*
I'll never be free
I'll never be free

-The end of part II-