Longing

There's curiosity controlling the mind
there's fear against the creed
and eager for tomorrow's deed
but surely; I'll praise thee till the end

I believe in his smile
where I found a place I can call home
and peace
a word or a look upon his face; I smile

I thought I'll never be healed
with a glance I am freed
yet as he spoke to me; I smile as I could
and 'I love' is the only word in my mind

happy at heart?
to live life to the fullest
with his presence I'll be gladly the happiest
indeed, he's the sweetest of all yet the best!

O, God hear me
a command of his to set my soul on fire
to melt over the flame
and the love that'll never change

now, I'm more joyful and I can happily sing
to the stars and whatever it could bring
of his love to overcome me, or something!
I couldn't figure but am patiently waiting

I am a little scared my dear
of a tragic loss; that's my fear
please hear!
so, you and I wont have to suffer

I weep with devastation from my cruelty
I doubted you once, and that torn me apart dramatically
mind me, once I break I say things spontaneously
but believe me, I'd never dare to hurt you purposely

if I ever did, I shall have the power to undo it
and heal every wound on your body - I must!
not break your heart apart
and when you need me I'll be by your side, no doubt!

promise you I will never fail you, not my intention
to the last breath of me I'll keep it in
or I'm undone; if you asked me to fly upon
you - the only one in my core, no confusion

now, my dear to demonstrate my feelings for you
I'll leave the decision of it all up to you
clearly, because I dearly love you
forgive my words or deeds if they've once injured you

the words seems so hard to pronounce
so, I write!
it could be my only way to say words that are sincerely true
and yet no one else matter but you to me

last words to say
in silence you may read those words of my poetry
don't refrain after and don't go away
whatever happens I'll never change but I'll definitely stay

I'll say with honor
for the world to hear
I'll love you with all I've of power
then I should leave you happy after