Farewell

There is no power on earth that brings the dead from their graves
Our imagination that feeds the filthy minds
To tell our tragedy and millions of misfortunes
Of whom to seek and opens the door to our simple empty lives

There is  nothing I should like so much as you
If only I could close my eyes and see only you
To think of thee "Oh dear why do I have to weep?"
"Some things are never meant to be, but I'm never here"

I know you did not meant to leave . But fate had to play its role
To put such emotions into words brought death to me
Felt there is no tomorrow without his love near
Only sorrow and beneath my smile, there is nothing to fear

Dear, as I hope for God's bliss awaiting his mercy to be upon me
I wrote those words of love, affection and hope
Let me tell you few last words, may this be remembered for centuries
In the history of humankind, love lived among wars, slaughters and diseases

We once walked through fire, holding hands and no regrets ever passed through our minds
To let love warmth our souls and heal our injured bodies
Not thinking of what obstacle we could face next but loving you forever was enough
Enough to bring my soul to see heaven on earth

I could not imagine life without your presence, your cold hands and your crackled voice
It was sweet melody to my ears... A voice of an angel
You are my only angel that ever existed in earth and furthermore
Bring me light for when I see the beauty of your face

Take me home where I can hear you singing to my ears
Where I can keep feeling your presence near
Even in my heart I know you are never here
Oh farewell my empty lovely soul

farewell my blue eyes angel
I doubted your love once
I thought your heart was made of stone
For when at night I feel your cold body as if you walked on ice

But everyday we relive our fairytales
We meet under the light of the sun so I can see the loveliness of your eyes
When I look at you I see blue skies, oceans... I see paradise
My story is true as a beating heart... Never had a free choice

But to love you forever .. That was the act of hearts
The mind is weak, fragile and worthless
Has no power upon me to control those messy feelings
Oh darling what have you done to me.. You took me to heaven  while my mind is gone far beyond madness

"Everything made sense at that time, fell for the lies and kindness you showed
But my feelings were stronger than silly paranoia"
"We are worthless now, we know the truth of our intentions. We both were aiming for salvation but at the end we lost the love."

I knew from the very start of our silly tale
I'd love you forever with all the doubts inside
You were on my mind,, since you walked through that door
Those endless moments of despair

It will always be yours.. Only yours
With all the passing years
And distance that seems faraway
My heart is yours for eternity

But what is the point when we have lost what is ours
When we fought for long till dreams were lost for us
When blue turned to gray till it reached darkness
Still one thing remains.. The beating heart

Wake up, we still have time to live
To breath once more
And breath evermore like there's no sword pointed at our throats
Like flying angels over the wide oceans

"Never mind .. It dies at the end
It doesn't matter what I feel
Or what I'm going through without you
If you are not by my side .. I don't exist"

I rather die from loneliness than look back
To forgive you for taking away my smile
But I shall believe no one..
Nor trust no man.. Till I finally peacefully die with no one by my side

Farewell blue eyes angel, farewell ...
We will keep lying to ourselves
That we are not broken anymore
Truth won't be fixed .. The heart is made of glass

I know why she cries (part II)

Their mind is like a tree in the winter
that'll never get any greener
no chance of getting better
they'll never hide from the eye of the beholder

Margrate: Tell me your story
Katherine: my story? You think I'd tell you that easily?
Margrate: didn't you ask me to write it on those wet papers?!
Katherine: well not today, when the sun rises

Margrate: But the sun rises every day, Madam!!
*my bones are shivering, I feel the cold inside her room*
*and that weird silence*
*she kept staring at her window, and I had to leave*

everyday she give me chills with her dark words
everyday  she prove to me how lonely she feels
how creepy she's and quite mysterious
only her beauty charms all  souls

I ran with my bared feet
*I've to tell Bill about this secret*
*oh what if he got mad, he will probably leave me*
*suddenly I can't feel my legs anymore*

Bill: What took you so long Amiit
Bill: You suppose to prepare for us something to eat
Margrate: why you're calling me Amiit?? and I had to work for hours
Margrate: yet I've only pinnies

Bill: What's going on with you? You became like the walls in this house
Bill: we never talk, eat together. Nothing feels the same!
Bill: we became like a ghost family, and you're never here
Bill: tell me that's not our end, tell me I'm in a nightmare

Margrate: stop the platitudes Bill! You always over react
it's not easy for me either, but...
Bill: but what?? Don't think of selling your self
it will kill us, and every memory in the past... is our break off
Margrate: Let me speak the truth just don't disbelief

I've been working for the Queen Katherine
she asked me to write
and publish the saddest story of all, you could never imagine
I've been writing for months, I kept it safe

For us to build better days
live like the royals
we can buy more lands
and be away from all the wars

I thought of telling you million of times
lived with silence tourtering my senses
let me be your future, even your past
let me be your eyes that see only light

I've walked the miles for you
day and night with blood on my feet, for you
for once I feel so fearless and happy
I'm finally alive, don't you even worry

Once I thought our love is a fairy tale
thought it will never die
even in time of war and crime
now we can be together and survive

Oh Bill, I'd keep the love
I'd lay beside your dead body and grieve
I'd spill my blood if it'd make you smile
my world revolves around you, no one else

And the Queen will give me fortune
then we can rule everyone
she promised if I keep on writing for her
she'll reward me with gold and silver

imagine my love, how wonderful life would be
a magical life
happiness is our destiny
every blood and sweat we dropped will make us wealthy

Oh sweet Bill, why you're dropping those precious tears?
are you happy for us?
what came into your soul my love?
speak some words to me

Bill: what do you want me to say?
Margrate: speak the truth, only!
Bill: but I'm afraid to hurt you
I'd free the demon in you
Margrate: *laughed* demon!! I don't understand you

Bill: you asked for the truth, then you shall hear nothing but the truth
*the silence took over, I could hear his breath*
go on...
go on...

Bill: I know you've always dreamed to be a writer
I know we need the money to live, but not to be richer
I know the love we felt once isn't the same anymore
I left you years ago, you're still living in the past Margrate

Margrate: What?! Why you're talking to me like we aren't together anymore?!
tell me you love me!!
I can't believe a word Bill, not a word!!
let me love you forever, that's all I ever wanted

Bill: let me finish Margrate, hear me for once
let me speak the words you need to believe
don't say one more word, till I hold that weak body of yours
till you realize you're living in an imaginary world for years

*I cried, thinking of myself and my life never existed before*
*he let me down once more*
*I kept my mouth shut, for me to hear his beautiful voice*
*Oh how I cherish thee*

Bill: listen to me Margrate Parr, the reason why ...
you've been drifting away from reality
is not understood from us all
but you created your own world and thinking it's real

you've became like a dead body walking for years
we all know there's a demon controling your senses
your not the real Margrate, none of us can help you to be
you might find peace, and light. But you'll never be able to truly live

Margrate: you're talking nonsense again Bill
I shall not believe you, and your lies that made me ill
go on in your way and I'll serve the Queen till death
I'll write forever, or swell until I burst for what it's worth

Bill: can't you hear me for once in your miserable life?
I saved you, and gave you a home
while everyone is afraid of you and your demon
I held your hand and gave you all of my lovin

*That day he walked away*
*I still dream to be free but who am I fooling? I'm a prisoner in my own body*
I'll never be free
I'll never be free

-The end of part II-

I know why she cries (part I)

There never was a limit to my dreams
of all things I've been taught to believe
and let life bring me grace right here
dreams set me free from all of my fears

once I do, I hold my breath and smile
thinking of you and how you'd look like
a beauty of an angle and a white beam
a body of a knight and a smile of a prince that I'd love

never met that man, but I see him only when I dream
not crazy yet, nor am for creating an imaginary "life"
I live in a world doesn't yet exist
for you and for everyone else

O tenderness, he breathes too
my heart beat fast when he's near
can't feel my limps shaking
my soul is flying of nervousness

I love that beauty of your face
and that body that held your soul in
oh your eyes , I'd look into those scarlet eyes forever
and feel the same way every time I do

please be true, be true and hold me till I die
be the knight
be the gentleman that would cherish me
be my world, be everything I ever hoped for

Destiny might lead me to you
out of my craving soul, I prayed for his existence
and woke up on the sound of the rain drops on my roof
the night was not just any night

the sun came up, and I was serving the Queen
she whispered "it's the end", "it's near I can feel it Margaret"
I hesitated "are you alright my Queen?"
"you don't understand"
"I try to understand, my Queen"

she burst into tears, "forgive me O, Lord!"
"But I can help you" I said wooing
"unless you can put my pain into ease"
then she started to breath so fast as if she never did
and I begun to write the story of " the Queen Katherine Baratheon"

my dreams faded away, with every visit to the Castle
with every breath I take, I step further away
from everything I've lived and hoped for
under the command of the Queen I shall write for her evermore

her story, for one day to be told
to the world shall hear that tragic story
for her life to end soon
O God bless her soul

let me adjust to the sadness, and pain in my heart
that I've felt since she spoke those words of sadness
life never been easy before and it will never be now
I came to understand dreams are nonsense
when you dream; you live in that "nonsense" part of reality

wide awake at night, thinking of my Knight
and my Queen, which one I shall pursuit
the knight wont be here, not now not ever
but my Queen will give me fortune that I've never dreamed of

it's a matter of a choice, and time is not on my side
I shall work harder to feed my family
the source of my happiness
no more starving days, not a single day in the year

I ran the next morning with my bared feet
they bled till I reached the Queen's room
I asked her to forgive me for ruining her floor with my dirty bloody feet
she smiled "don't mind that, you served that floor for years"
"I shall write now my Queen"

She started of with stranger words than before;
"we are the night, the dark and everything evil
how our hearts became as strong as steel
and body with no tenderness and soul"

my whole life as a Queen, never enjoyed this luxury life
not a second, with all the money and lands I own
I've nothing to hold on to, am just poor as you
hollow as a bottle of wine

she stayed silent for few hours, and I kept waiting for her to speak
stood up and kept staring at her window
and never moved a side
but kept staring at that window, till it rained

"Go home now, and let me have some sleep"
"right away my Queen"
felt for her sorrow beneath that weak, skinny body
and the voice that's full of pain, with eyes full of tears

after that rainy night, we started off again
to complete the untold story of that beauty queen
sat where I can see her face clearly
and this time she brought a little black book

"shall we?"
"yes my Queen"
"make sure you write every word comes out of my mouth"
nodded in agreement


"I had a lover Margaret, a lover!!"
"yes of course my lady, My king and yours"
"my lover wasn't my husband and he'll never be" cried
"then who is he my lady, and what happen to that love of yours"

"Skip that part till another day, when the sunrises and the land starts to glow"
"as you wish my Lady"
smiled at me, "you serve me well Margaret Parr"
"it's my pleasure"

let me tell you how my heart aches
how it burns my soul, like the acids on my skin
everything was taken away from me
no exception, but I've realized life is not a ring on my finger

nonetheless, I believe in fire that burns the flesh
I believe in water that drowns the soul
I believe in all as well as the sun and the moon
I believe of a bravery man and his heart

with everything I see or even hear
and what I touch and taste
I shall behold thee within me
right here *touched her chest* till the end of the world


I shall believe till men drag me to my grave
with a pity in my heart for all those men
to live without that pure love and believe
but I only pity them who live among us
like stones no soul, no imagination or a slight of faith
in all and all that surrounds us with their existence

*Margaret Parr = the servant, the writer

*Katherine Baratheon  = the Queen

The Queen of my Heart

If our love was never a lie
we'd walk down the aisle
begin to hold your soft hands
and give those lips a sweet kiss


"I'd grant you everything I own and ever have"
look from thee
my lady you're a fine fantasy
dreamed of you for a century


a heart like yours, a better sweet symphony
when I look at you the only thought of  me is dreaming my lady
she smiled "I am there and here my love"
once I gave you a dream and now I give you life


trust the soul and doubt none
I am all yours; have faith in me for once
with those words she touched the depths of me
shivered with tears on my eye


I've owned the seas
with its lands
am the leader of all heroes
before me nothing existed and after it nothing comes


God gave me a treasure to protect, to cherish, and to love
she's like a shiny star when she smile
had a pure core that speaks from the heart
but sadly lived at the time of 'thrall'


beauty like hers!! my eyes never witnessed
I'd kiss her soft lips till they bleed
hold her body till she frowns
but she never say 'the angry words'


of all that time I've lived
with her and before her, purely she loved
that she never would tell me
how horrible I was to everyone


she's my queen, that never disobeyed
If she did, I could never  let her bind
those knees never bound to me
and her wide eyes didn't cry upon me


and finally came across that lady
that lead the king's heart to a beautiful fantasy
I love her like I never loved anyone
to her only the heart is supple.

In Time of Persecution

We have not seen the sun for days
walking through the deserts
craved the breeze of the flowers
and water to beat the thirsts

we've been mistreated
we've been misunderstood
our wives were raped
and brutally our children were killed

no mercy upon us, not now not ever
we're born to be outsiders, "I dream to be free''... never!
to fly like a little bird so far
far away from the suffer

cry upon me Mary
let there be light upon us Mary
come to me, guide me through this war that questioned our humanity
set my soul free and give me wings to fly

to fly..
fly in the sky..


I saw them die one after another, die like flies
I witnessed the history of the largest genocides
blood on my hands
blood every where I go, every where my soul cries

I saw them die...
I saw them ... die!

dreams faded away, to my heart and destroyed me all
from hope to a wish ..to be ill
to die today, right here on my cold bed.. am not a fool!
but a man with a wary head. Yet I feel!

feel the heart beat
closer to my chest
touched the soul, my core ... deepest!!
beneath I ache, of what I kept in " a thousands of sacrament"

I'd sanctify the soil of my country
fought with all of my power to see you one day
just a second, when I was away my whole life,... far far away!!
to pray on the land of all heros, that I've never seen... not today
not today..

I held that dream for generations
I held it in me, in the heart of my sons and daughters
tears upon my face, my heart still burning for my holy lands
that been taken from me forcefully, in seconds!

bring me victory O Lord! bring me victroy, for my children to live in peace
and honored under the fortune's eye
of what glory will provide.. from pride
"tears upon my face"

I'd cry for you,.. for ages!
those tears will never ease the pain nor heal my injuries
Oh son! humanity was lost down the drains
who to blame? for what we've lost? we lost our souls, grounds.. around we used to play

and worst of all, the pain is still there
living inside of me
increasing day by day, thousands of years.. believe me!
as you shall hear, grant me peace...
grant me peace...

on the saddened nights
we fought the war of our lives
we lost our women, children through the conflicts
got nothing to lose, nothing to gain after.. no life nor graces!

my people I call you, by the name of our beloved land
bring it back, to the man with pride... we once had
to the man that have no fear from "the end"

we lived...
we dreamed...
we struggled...
to win the battlel, cost us everything! "everything son" we once owned!

and you tell me, yet you can smile?
you tell me, life is still good around me?
you give me hope?
how life can be pleasant when I've no land, no family, nor history to remember... yet I bleed from head to toe!

God knows to frighten and dismay the enemy
lay them under a curse for eternity
let their bodies dry from poverty
and their children to live with disgrace and fragility. (Amen)




notes:
1-I used (God), (Mary), (Lord) because the poem is presenting a whole nation with different religions, faith, and beliefs.

I'll add more notes later

Longing

There's curiosity controlling the mind
there's fear against the creed
and eager for tomorrow's deed
but surely; I'll praise thee till the end

I believe in his smile
where I found a place I can call home
and peace
a word or a look upon his face; I smile

I thought I'll never be healed
with a glance I am freed
yet as he spoke to me; I smile as I could
and 'I love' is the only word in my mind

happy at heart?
to live life to the fullest
with his presence I'll be gladly the happiest
indeed, he's the sweetest of all yet the best!

O, God hear me
a command of his to set my soul on fire
to melt over the flame
and the love that'll never change

now, I'm more joyful and I can happily sing
to the stars and whatever it could bring
of his love to overcome me, or something!
I couldn't figure but am patiently waiting

I am a little scared my dear
of a tragic loss; that's my fear
please hear!
so, you and I wont have to suffer

I weep with devastation from my cruelty
I doubted you once, and that torn me apart dramatically
mind me, once I break I say things spontaneously
but believe me, I'd never dare to hurt you purposely

if I ever did, I shall have the power to undo it
and heal every wound on your body - I must!
not break your heart apart
and when you need me I'll be by your side, no doubt!

promise you I will never fail you, not my intention
to the last breath of me I'll keep it in
or I'm undone; if you asked me to fly upon
you - the only one in my core, no confusion

now, my dear to demonstrate my feelings for you
I'll leave the decision of it all up to you
clearly, because I dearly love you
forgive my words or deeds if they've once injured you

the words seems so hard to pronounce
so, I write!
it could be my only way to say words that are sincerely true
and yet no one else matter but you to me

last words to say
in silence you may read those words of my poetry
don't refrain after and don't go away
whatever happens I'll never change but I'll definitely stay

I'll say with honor
for the world to hear
I'll love you with all I've of power
then I should leave you happy after

The Shadow Of The Palm Trees

when the light of the sun comes upon
feels the warmth and touches my skin
and my hand on my chest
while the heart skipped a beat

sang for the lonely nights
on the empty roads
we walked through
no hesitations nor regrets beneath

lay the body on the green grass
and under the shadow of the palm trees
we laughed
and never glanced

how the love of two young hearts faded away
it flew.. you say?!
never imagined I'd never see your face
not a look on the pretty eyes of yours nor a touch once more

I lay on bed every night wondering and asking questions need to be answered
wondering what life gave you to forget the love we once had
can't find an answer
can't stop thinking... "shed a tear"

love O where you went?
the warmth of my soul and how my heart felt
when there was you beside me
all I wanted to be there forever and evermore

I had not let it all yet
you meant the world to me, that was in the past
but left me here to die
with no hope

one day you'll realize the world we lived in isn't going to be back
all we had is gone with the rain drops, if there's luck
my heart shall be healed
from all the scars your departure caused

how sad to say again
no man is worth to suffer and risk for, no man!!
but I believe you deserve everything I own
my soul, my heart my body my all! you are my man

came in to the heart for once and never left it at all
made my mind and it's final
I can't barely say how much it hurts to be alone
lonely friday's it shall be

it's cold when you're not around
the noises I can't hear but your voice is a melody
you shall give me life if you answer me
let me know you are watching me

waiting for me, you may promise?
let me know my love, you'll never leave
give me hope,
give me air to breath

oh my poor heart let this love go, you shall hear me "scream"
set my soul free, and give me reason to dream
under the palm trees; yet I believe in you
and bid farewell, dear lord, lest I should grieve you